Saturday brings a new moon in steady, sensual Taurus, and with it, a chance to set an intention, to make a plan for how you’re going to love yourself in the strange days ahead. If you’re seeking stability, what can you do to find and hold onto it? If you’re seeking sweetness, what can you do to keep your heart open to the springtime’s continuing green generosity?
Maybe there’s a complicated truth you keep trying to outrun, or ignore, or convince yourself isn’t relevant anyway. Maybe there’s a feeling deep in your stomach — love, or anger, or sorrow — that you’re still trying to wish away. This week, finally, try letting yourself know exactly what you know. Try letting yourself feel exactly what you feel, without pretending it’s less than it is. It won’t destroy you. If you need to make a change, you can do it with your eyes open and your heart full. What is all your golden courage for, if not times like this?
Some unknown good is traveling closer and closer; some past magic is returning for you. Maybe this means that some kind of chaos is lifting from your life, or maybe it means your tangled emotions are arranging themselves back into a knowable pattern. Maybe the world is offering an answer, if you’ll just look to see it, to the question you’ve been asking. Maybe it’s something different, something smaller but just what you needed. Maybe the lilacs are almost ready to bloom, and you’ll be there to bear witness.
Lately, maybe it’s felt like the world has grown too chaotic even for you. Maybe it’s felt like all of your magic and all of your charm are no match for these howling winds, or like you have to change yourself radically: become serious, rely on work and nothing else to save you. And it’s true that there’s work involved in anything good, but don’t try to disavow your other powers. The world needs everything you have to offer, and that includes your wildness, it includes your magic, and it includes your truest expression of self.
This week, pay attention to the physical things that attract your desires. Pay attention to the objects you wish were yours, to the plants or colors or buildings that pull at you with a strange magnetic force. Don’t imagine this to be an act of some kind of shameful materialism. It isn’t wrong to want some kind of beauty to hold onto. This doesn’t mean you’re going to lose yourself in objects. When your other feelings become muddled and hazy, focusing on what you’re able to see and touch can give some clarity.
You might be struck by a moment of strangeness and unexpected doubt, a moment that invites you, suddenly, to question whether you know the things you think you know, whether your assumptions might have been wrong all along. It can be useful, sometimes, to sit with doubt, but doing so requires caution. You can follow new questions to see where they lead, you can venture into the wilderness, but calibrate your compass before you do. Remember your true golden core, and remember what real love looks like. Remember what you really believe, and what you’re really looking for.
Maybe the morning sunlight has felt softer than usual as it comes through the kitchen window. Maybe the quiet rain has felt like an immense kindness. Or maybe the songs that pound from the cars on your street have sounded more full of life than ever. Sometimes, your best ideas come from a place deep inside yourself, but this week, they might come from your ability to observe and interact with external things. This week, pay attention to all the different ways that your body can receive the world’s messages.
Everything that exists in your dreams exists somewhere in the universe, too. Everything that exists in your thoughts exists somewhere in your body, too. It’s easy to forget about your own active presence in the world, easy to forget that the actions you take can tilt the world’s balance. Your thoughts might move like the wind, like a dream, but you have a body, too. When you walk, you part the air; when you speak, you part the silence. There’s a potent magic in your body and voice, so how will you use it for good?
Sometimes, the safest way toward the thing you want most is not the straight but rather the crooked path, the sidestep, the back door. This week, though, you might be better served by walking straight toward your desires, asking for them by name, letting the world know precisely what it is that you’re seeking. You know your own body, and your own needs, and the distance between where you are and where you should be. Acting with straightforwardness will help you to cross that distance, and it won’t dull the sharp secret intensity of your feelings, either.
A mind as roving and curious as yours becomes cluttered over time — filled to the top with maps and memories and theories of the universe. It’s difficult to hold onto all of this at once, difficult to reconcile all the pieces of your life into one broad whole. This week, let yourself discard some of the older stuff — or at least let yourself file it away for now. Your thoughts need some open space where they can move again. It’s springtime and your magic needs a field where it can bloom, bright and wild.
Sometimes, when your feelings start to rise up inside you, they present themselves not as shining gifts but as mysteries to be unraveled, as challenges to be overcome. Sometimes when your feelings start to make themselves known, they seem like nothing but additional work. So if you need to, let yourself relate to them as tasks for now. Let yourself do what feels like work, and then let yourself be tired by it, the same as you would by any other work. Allow yourself to rest at the end of the day, too, without any guilt.
There’s a difference — an important one — between imagining there are no rules, no limits at all, and understanding that there’s a tightly-woven network of rules that you’re still allowed to break. Sometimes it’s enough just to pretend barriers don’t exist, but this week, you’ll have the power to see the barriers clearly, with all their fearsome weight, and push back against them anyway. This is a week to remind yourself, if you need it, that the limits set by the people above you don’t have to mean the end.
This week, it’ll be possible to start doing the work of extricating your feelings from some of the traps that have been set for them — by other people, or by yourself, long ago, when you were less certain and more afraid than you are today. This week, it’ll be possible to start doing the work of saying no to impossible situations, saying no to unacceptable terms. Life isn’t always as simple as just putting one foot in front of the other and taking one step at a time, but just for now, it might be.
Read the horoscope for the week of April 22 here. The horoscope for the week of May 6 will be here.